Sunday 10 October 2010

‘Oh great God be small enough to hear me now’.

I have just heard some incredibly sad news, the kind of news that makes your heart break. This kind of news makes you ask the question "where are you God"?

‘Oh Great God be small enough to hear me now’.
The kind of tragedy that when they happen it feels like there has been a seismic shift in the earth beneath your feet, what you once built your life on cannot be relied on anymore.

‘Oh Great God be small enough to hear me now’.
I have experienced personally this kind of news three times in my life; the death of my mum and elder sister and the day my lovely life imploded and all I once based my happiness on seemed to have disappeared.

‘Oh Great God be small enough to hear me now’.

This kind of pain comes in like waves of anguish that gnaw at the pit of your stomach. You think of the situation and you feel the wave wash over you afresh and for me I found that I cried in a way that felt primeval a wail that was wrenched from deep within myself.

‘Oh Great God be small enough to hear me now’.

I listened to this sad news and I thought of the loss and anguish I knew that this family were now experiencing. I was only acquainted with them but I could imagine this woman wailing from the pit of her stomach. It may not for her have been audible but her pain could not be eased with a few kind words or a cup of tea.

‘Oh Great God be small enough to hear me now’.

This pain cannot be rushed through or plastered over it has to be lived through, and oh how long do the days feel and lets not even mention the nights, the nights are unbearable and so very long.

‘Oh Great God be small enough to hear me now’.

I do not want to bring any flippant answers here but I found that when I read the Bible God found a way to break through and speak to this aching pain.

He is small enough because I want to say that my Great God is exactly that in these times.

Lamentations 3 v 20 – 26
I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."
The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.